I try to be, I do. But I’m just not perfect. I try to do my best but laziness always gets in the way. I try to study hard to get a high score but still I don’t reach my goals. I’m trying so hard but I think I’m just not that good enough or maybe I’m not fit for this course. I just had a conversation with my friend a while ago and she told me to beat her at a test in Chem. She got a 94 and I immediately said that I won’t be able to do that I’m happy if I could even pass the subject. She then replied that I shouldn’t settle for just a passing and that I should aim for the top. I haven’t felt that feeling for a long time, you know, wanting to be on top. It just seemed like a dream, something I will never be able to achieve again. I’ve been feeling more worthless as days pass by. I’m just so tired.
